So I thought I would start a blog to write down a few things about life in general, and mostly what God is teaching me through my walk with him....one of them....
....heart issues....the story of my life....
Have you ever felt defeat...gone through defeat...exprerienced defeat??? Well I have had this new experience arise...something I thought I would never ever actually exprience...
...have you ever hoped for change, longed for change....held on for change yet change never seems to show up...you fight for something, hope for something yet you never feel like you are seeing the 'something' happen....
...I had this metaphoric epiphany....have you ever seen a warrior/soldier fighting on their own in a battle...they are still fighting for something that everyone else is fighting for...their skills are something that is going to help the team bring victory...however when they are battling and fighting for the cause and there is no one to watch their back, there comes a time when the warrior spirit starts to fade and eventually they put down their weapons from tiredness and start walking away...
...they feel defeated....
...'Unrelenting disappointment leaves you heartsick, but a sudden good break can turn life around.' Prov 13v12 (msg)
Unstoppable dissapointment makes the heart sick and causes it to feel defeated, failed, and unable to feel like it can fight for anything anymore....BUT a sudden good break can bring fullfillment...
...I think...no, I know God is the God of change and turnaround...its his business...He knows our passions, desires, our DNA...what makes us tick...
...if I have something I long to see happen...if I constantly fight on my own for it...I will get tired...however I have the assurance that if I put my weapons down, God will pick up his and fight on my behalf...He will fight for me...thats what He does...But I need to give that over to him...trust Him in it, get on with my day in and day out things...have a hope IN Him and not hold SO tightly...let it go...do the things that make me tick, make me who I am, bring me fullfillment in this life, and let Christ do His thing...
