there comes a day.

I was on the bus today, it was my day off.

My capacity to think was not as high as normal, but I have realized that that is alright...as thoughts come in from nowhere that actually are good, and I have also come to recognize that voice that lets me know that it is safe to go 'there' (wherever your 'there' is), and allow the thought to progress into something....it's about having control over your thought life... 

But you know though, when it is so easy to worry, like where you have come from in your struggles and trials, what has happened in your life, and allow the old Lauren (insert name here) to run back there to that place. 

Fear loves to entrap you in that 'place' of numbness, where in your mind you think 'how silly do you think you are, that you could move forward.' But in your heart you just so want to be there person you were designed to be, in purity, integrity and wholeness....

There comes a day in all your trials and tribulations, that you can let go, and in courage move forward as you know trust in your heart, that your life is not meant for nothing....that your life's trials were not meant for nothing.

That day will come for you...it really will come...